Beginning was sweet,

That's how most relationship start,

hopefully it will always be like that,

from starting to the end.

But for me, it did not end like that.

sweet in the beginning,sad at the end.

began with K at the start of school,

how sweet it was at the beginning.

but i duno why i often cry.

insecurity? moodiness? i'm not sure why..

but K sure did guide me thru my studies

and accompanied me to study..

till A levels all went smoothly..

i went to uni,

K went to army..

things slowly change..

K became moody easily..

most of the time when he sees me, a black face is wat i see..

often i had to go to his house, and watch him play games..

till he is happy, then he brings me out to play..

like a lil' pup waiting.. for her owner to bring her..

after walking, my parents wana bring me home,

K often gets angry

cos he has to be there waiting,

and cannot go home early to play his games..

i was often unhappy to see him moody,

tried my best to make him happy..

remember once i folded some hearts,

put them in the box and said to him..

i will fold different color of heart to show ur mood,

red is for happy and blue is for bad mood..

hope that u will try to cheer up more

when u found that u are nearly always in a bad mood..

cos if u are happy, then i will be happy too..

but..

K took the box and gave a laugh..

threw it one side and continued his game..

i was shocked and sad that day..

i kept all my sadness inside me till one day..

i used to always rush to the first church service on sunday..

had to wake up at 6 plus am and reach at 7 plus..

all these rushing and panting just for him..

and usually on schooldays i already had to wake up early..

sundays should be relaxing and not tiring..

but i still did tat for quite a few weeks..

used to go in the afternoon with my family..

but now had to rush early in the morning and..

alone..

but when i rushed to his house to meet him,K said to me..

why so late then come see me?

i was hurt.. he din know..

but someone did know..

one day in the service..God talked to me..

He told me to cast my cares and burdens upon Him..

i felt a release..

i decided to go with my family in the afternoon,

rather than rush all the way jus to hear him say

those hurtful things and watch him play games all day..

slowly things began to change..

i began to change slowly as GOD brought B to me..

thru the game elysium which K wanted me to play..

i met B in the game..B began to listen to me..

he showed his concern to me..we began to talk nearly every nite..

and i dun get tired and loved to talk to him..

for 2 years plus never really had someone to talk to..

but B was there for me..he cared for me and talked to me..

till 3 am we were still talking..

i loved the times when B tried to get me to sleep..

he treated me like a little girl which i had yearned to be..

B was like a big bro in the beginning..

and i am like a little girl who loves to hang around with him..

love blossom and i slowly began to like B..

am i a bad girl? i hope not..

but if someone treats u better, won't u fall in love?

my pastor has said once..

a woman's love will slowly be transferred

thru communication to another..

and this happened to me when B talked to me more than K..

in may this year, i broke up with K..

i could still remember tat day..

i went to K's house and he asked if i still loved him..

but i can't seem to answer him..

i left his house and cried whole day..

with B by my side and dun blame him..

i called him to come as i dun have anyone to turn to..

as time goes by i found tat i

have made the right decision at that time..

now i am so happy with B by my side..

he makes me feel like his sweet sweet princess

and loves me so much till i am in sweet love..

he kisses me and hugs me..

he gets along very well with my family..

he comes to my house to accompany me..

and massages my tired shoulders for me..

i am so in love with him i love seeing him

smile and laugh till i feel like hugging him..

i really love you alot my sweet sweet B..

may our love be everlasting..

i hope to spend my whole life with you..

and go up to heaven to see our father God..

with Jesus loving us dearly..

i love you always..